Endless love is the first song I have shared here. When I was first trying to work out this task (a website and recording music) I was utterly overwhelmed (and still pretty much am). It has taken me almost two years to be obedient to this persistent whisper that I very much want to ignore, but also want to see the other side of. Nearly a year ago I made a bunch of poor recordings on cheap equipment while I was trying to figure out software and sound. (I have NOT figured it out yet!). I needed an under-five-minute song for an application on the same day I felt pressed “Today is the day to make your website live.” Grunt. I don't want to make a new recording for the application (even though it's asking for video) so I sift through the audio recordings I made last year “Are there any UNDER five minutes?” This one was. Did a quick listen. Not terrible sound, all things considered. So I uploaded it there. When I went to make this little space live (aka buy the subscription), I decided to go ahead and plop it right in there to share with you. If it was good enough for them, it's good enough for you.
About this song, I wrote this as a poem out of my journaling time with the Lord in 2013, very shortly before my world fell apart from three angles at once… maybe four. Only two months before I had come home from a conference with a fire tunnel where “You're just going to get whatever you need,” and for the first time since I was a child, I didn't hate myself. I still suffered from perfectionism, and the problem of not living how I believed which I allowed to cause me shame.
For some of these inspired writings, and poems, they get changed into a more traditional song format before writing music. But this one I didn't feel like forcing the words into pretty little lyrics with the average musical pattern. It just felt right to stay as it was. When I added the music I was working full time, and in my second year of gradschool. I don't remember specifics, but it's probably a miracle I had any time for any kind of hobby.
This song is encouraging. The Father takes us through sanctification toward holiness, those of us who believe Him and His word, but there is no place for shame and condemnation in that process. Those two little beasts actually hinder the process of us being moved toward perfection. God is not surprised by our shortcomings, but He will help us when we turn our attention to Him. God's business is breaking down walls so we can be restored to a communal relationship with Him. He is our Father! We were born separate from Him because of the first Adam. We can separate ourself from Him when we have known him (by feeling guilt, shame and condemnation), but He made a way for our restoration through Jesus Christ, and continually pursues us. Forgive God, forgive yourself, forgive others, and look to Jesus for healing and restoration! It's free, it's easy, and it's right!
As you listen to, or sing this song, imagine the Father of all creation singing it to you! Come near to Him! The blood of Jesus can cleanse you from everything that separates you from Father, Son, and Holy Spirit!
Scripture (YLT)
Rom 8:1 There is, then, now no condemnation to those in Christ Jesus, who walk not according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit;
Rom 8:2 for the law of the Spirit of the life in Christ Jesus did set me free from the law of the sin and of the death;
Rom 8:3 for what the law was not able to do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God, His own Son having sent in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, did condemn the sin in the flesh,
Rom 8:4 that the righteousness of the law may be fulfilled in us, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. 2Co 7:1 Having, then, these promises, beloved, may we cleanse ourselves from every pollution of flesh and spirit, perfecting sanctification in the fear of God;
Php 1:6 having been confident of this very thing, that He who did begin in you a good work, will perform it till a day of Jesus Christ,
Heb 12:22 But, ye came to Mount Zion, and to a city of the living God, to the heavenly Jerusalem, and to myriads of messengers,
Heb 12:23 to the company and assembly of the first-born in heaven enrolled, and to God the judge of all, and to spirits of righteous men made perfect,
Heb 12:24 and to a mediator of a new covenant—Jesus, and to blood of sprinkling, speaking better things than that of Abel!
1Jn 3:1 See ye what love the Father hath given to us, that children of God we may be called; because of this the world doth not know us, because it did not know Him;
1Jn 3:2 beloved, now, children of God are we, and it was not yet manifested what we shall be, and we have known that if he may be manifested, like him we shall be, because we shall see him as he is;
1Jn 3:3 and every one who is having this hope on him, doth purify himself, even as he is pure.